Have u ever felt..

Have u ever felt like giving up just cos...

U are not worth it
.......U dont deserve it

.......U dwell in the luxury of the world
U are the worst of mankind
........U slack so much that u dunno where to start
U felt so alone fighting ur "battles"
........U were left in the lurch by ur loved ones
U had no time
.......U are breathlessly tired

U had no improvement
.......Ur hopes were dashed
U fall and make a fool
.......U fear what others say

U are scared
....U need more motivations
U were squashed like a fly
....U felt like there was no hope
U felt like dying
.....U felt empty
Ur tears are all dried up
.....Ur loved ones left u
U end up failing
.....U get into worse troubles
U create more problems for urself
....U just kept on drowning
U shout but no one can hear ur cries
....U felt numb
U felt devastated

Just pick up ur hands, cupped them up and make a supplication...

He is always there
He is always listening

and He will answer ur prayers...


don't be dishearten....

from the heart...

http://munirfa.wordpress.com/

A lot has been happening lately.

So much teardrops and sadness thruout these months. Cannot concentrate...

Felt that I dont deserve this. I felt so "kerdil" (tiny) in that far tiny corner of the world, evaporating.

I felt submerged in my sins that kept on accumulating.
I felt my heart is gasping for help...

Suffocating in the desires of the world
...................wanting to find a way out
lost amongst the thorny bushes
Thruout the stony hard rocky path

I kept telling ,yself
I dont deserve this
God, but I do need this
Dont deny me this gift
Dont take it away from me
But show me the light
the right path
the right way

I hope Im not too late
So much for me to learn
To grasp the knowledge
To remember as much
To love as much
But I can only do as much

I cannot bear if I were to lose this
I cannot bear to leave this

Oh God, please help me, ur hamba...
ur servant who is always struggling
to ur right path.....
amin.

Damba cinta mu

Raihan - Damba cintamu


Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMu
Ku sering melanggar laranganMu
Dalam sedar ataupun tidak
Ku sering meninggalkan suruhanMu
Walau sedar aku milikMu

Bilakah diri ini 'kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagi kuingat petang kualpa
Begitulah silih berganti
Oh Tuhanku,Kau pimpinlah diri ini
Yang mendamba CintaMu
Aku lemah aku jahil
Tanpa pimpinan dariMu
Ku sering berjanji di depanMu
Sering jua ku memungkiri
Ku pernah menangis keranaMu
Kemudian ketawa semula

Kau pengasih
Kau penyayang
Kau pengampun
Kepada hamba-hambaMu
Selangkah ku kepadaMu
Seribu langkah Kau padaku
Tuhan,Diri ini tidak layak ke surgaMu
Tapi tidak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu

Kutakut kepadaMu
Ku mengharap jua padaMu
Mogaku 'kan selamat dunia akhirat
Seperti rasul dan sahabat
Seperti rasul dan sahabat

This song describes perfectly what I'm feeling....

Not good enough....

I always have this problem. Whenever I got the "uzur" (pms) I always take that as a "holiday" and I neglect my hifz. I am a person that cannot take any break. I need to istiqamah all the way both old and new surahs. I realised that if I stop, its hard to get back on track.

I had visited the cemetery recently. But this hard as rock heart do not feel anything. Either I was numb thinking about worldly affairs or I'm really a goner. I had lost my way....

I need to recite the Quran again. Actually I can read those Surahs that I fear I will forget during "uzur" but I rather not to, I dunno why.

I cannot follow my heart...there is a malay saying "kalau ikut hati, mati"..if u follow ur heart, u will die...the truth has spoken.

I need to muhasabah diri and think hard about the "sins" commited that cause this heart to have a "plague" like the teeth. Need to scrape it off. Need my Quran.

I think I need to thinkback why I chose this path , why I love Hifz, why I wanted to be ahuffaz..I need to re-think and evaluate my goals and aspirations again. I need to watch "the mesage" video again to bring back those hot tears and to reminisces the hard path that the Prophet (pbuh) had to go thru to bring Islam and Al-Quran to us...

yeah indeed I need to do that...

Ok, its HARD work but I can do it!!

Stucked at Ar-Rahmaan.

Had not been in class due to very busy schedule. So tired to go to class, the mind is exhausted.

But that should not be an excuse. I still remember Ustaz told me that he believes I can khatam my hifz. With such conviction and confidence he said..I must prove him right! Insya-Allah amin.

Stucked at Ar-Rahmaan and as-sajdah then its test time. I need to set a goal for this year. Time is running out soon. I need to get back on my feet to those glory days , i need to be motivated. Push everything aside for a moment and persevere! I know I can do it! And I will!

I need this!

I dunno what to do...

I admit, I felt so GUILTY. I was too engrossed with my work that I neglect something precious dearest to my heart...my best friend the Holy Quran.

I wanna cry but I can't
I wanna shout at the top of my voice "HELP" but I can't

I just can doa in my heart with all my sincerity that God help me
Help me in opening the right path for me again
a better way for my heart to allow Al-Quran back into my life

What has happen to me?

Why did I allow such tragedy to happen?

Why am I so engrossed in chasing worldly gains?

I dunno....

I had been invited time and again to embraced Hifz and yet I did not treasure that invitation and cherish the time I had on earth.

What is wrong with me? I dunno

I am at loss..
I need to get back on my feet.

Stop, look and listen.
Listen to my heart and Al-Quran.
Read those hadiths and understand them by heart
Practise it!

I know i can do it!
I am and I will conquer this hurdle.
Because I know i am the BEST!
Insya-Allah.

Tiada gunanya...

Hati membatu keras
Tidak mahu dengar maupun membaca

Hati ku keras seperti permata
tiada mampu menembusi

Hati ku keras seperti besi
tiada yang dapat melembutkannya

Hati ku...
Oh hatiku, mengapa engkau berdegil sekali

Kenapa engkau engkar?
Kenapa? Kenapa?

Dunia penuh muslihat
Dunia permainan sementara

Tidak mahukah engkau kepada yang hakiki?
Yang kekal selamanya
yang tinggi ,cantik,suci
Jannatul Firdausi?

Subhanallah
Ya Allah lunturkan kekerasan hatiku ini dengan bacaan Al-Quran.
Lembutkan hatiku dengan tangisan mendengar Al-Quran.
Lembutkan hatiku ini untuk menghafal Al-Quran....
Amin.

Why the heavy heart?

Why does my heart felt heavy all of a sudden?

Is it because I had left
something valuable behind?
Is it because I had left
My soulmate behind?
Is it because I had left
and not looked back...

Why,why,why the sudden change?
Why did I ignore ?
Why did I left it stranded?
Why did I let it untouched?

Dunia is just temporary
The heart has been misled with the symphony

I'm stranded
With a heavy heart
Misled by so many attractions

Need to get a hold
Need to get a grip
Need to get back to reality

Reality of life on dunia and hereafter

Got to get back
Got to get my motivations
Got to return to my friend, my best friend dunia akhirat
............................... the Holy Quran.

Scanned images of Al-Quran

To facilitate my learning, I actually scanned or took pic (digital camera) some of the surahs that I am going to memorized or had memorized. Because its easy for me especially when the laptop is by my side always. And sometimes during inconvenient times, I can view it without touching and I can repeat my old memroization.

And then I found this site. IT had done the job for me. I oly scanned a few pages (juz 30, surah pilihan )SUbhanallah. May Allah reward those who put in so much effort for the benefit of all muslims.

Subhanallah.

http://www.ceramahislam.com/online-quran.html

Islamic lectures

http://www.ceramahislam.com/

I can and WILL do it!!

I know I can finish this Surah-surah pilihan and faced the test with complete ease of mind. I know I can finish 5 juzuk at the end of this year (seriously?) insya-Allah.

I know, I can and I will do it!!!

I will do it!
I can do it!
I will do it!
I can do it!
I will and I can!!

I need to finish within 1.5 years or less than 3 years and grab that Nasi briyani that Ustaz has promised ..heheh!!!

Home based Quranic learning.

I am very pleased that there are mosques that have the home based learning of Al-Quran. This is to inculcate Quranic reading as a part of each muslim's life. Now, u cannot push it any further. U can have the "class" at the comfort of ur own home and at ur own free time.

SO dont procrastinate, if u cannot read the Holy Quran, do it now, it's never too late! U can get a group of ur friends too!

The mosques that participate in this program are listed here:
http://www.muis.gov.sg/cms/services/Mosques.aspx?id=5822

Darul Ghufran (Tampines)
http://www.darulghufran.org/courses/quranic-courses/home-tuition-scheme/

Bought 2 new books, recently!!!

The first one is at Muslimedia bookstore (my favourite!) @ Sultan Mosque (34, kandahar st). It was a HUGE Juzuk Amma (30th juz of the Holy Quran). The 1.5litre bottle is to show its size. Cost about $5.+

The next book is about motivational stories on those who had succeeded in memorizing the Holy Quran (subhanallah!) Sorry, I have trouble with my laptop....so the image hehhe!!

Anyway, there are stories about how the elderly, the blind and some very young kids memorized the Holy Quran. Have not finished reading yet. Interesting...

Found this at Joo Chiat level 2 (the biggest book shop nearest to the external escalator)

Hadith 1-5

Been busy lately. Down with fever, flu and stuff. Starting a whole new job......Wanted to scan every page but no time, so I took pics instead..

These 2 hadiths are repetitions of what I wrote previously....

Hadith:

We are at hadith 8 now. This week, Ustaz start using the $2.50 small book to test our hadith. This time, he asked us what we perceived from this hadith. What does it teaches us? In our own words...

As usual, I had already practise and memorized but when faced with Ustaz, i started all the stammering, loss of memory and blabbering ..... sigh! I need to get over this fright!

Memorization of Al-Quran:
Stuck at Al-Waqiah. I was so busy with my new job that I kinda "neglect" my memorization.

Then one day, I had a dream that my Ustaz was so disappointed with me. I was in a graduation ceremony or something. Everyone was anticipating my recitation till I told Ustaz, I had not finished my Surah Al-Waqiah... And Ustaz face showed a great disappointment which I never forget . Even though , it was only a dream, I can feel the disappointment even as I woke up!

I felt as though I had disappoint him thus everytime I think of his disappointment face, I buck up, I improve and work harder.... Alhamdulillah. It helps...

Now I'm starting with Surah Ar-Rahman , and left with one surah and I will complete this group of Surah Pilihan.

Then the test....YIKES!

The Quran Miracles Encyclopedia...

http://www.55a.net/firas/english/

Check it out!

New things i learnt today...lesson 2

JUICY TIP!!!
Read the supplicaion (doa) below before U start ur memorization :

I love this! I read the translation, Subhanallah...
(Fyi, U can click on the image above to view the enlarge image of the supplication)

Ok, today, I learnt...

I found out that Imam Bukhari memorizes the Holy Quran 30juzuk first before memorizing 600000 hadiths. Imam Muslim memorizes 300000+ hadith. Subhanallah. And that in order for Imam Bukhari to accept a hadith from that particular person, He will investigate the background, characterisitics, akhlak, religion , generation and even the "kemantapan hafazan" (whether that person memory is good). WOW!

Anyway, I learn that the hadith " Gather knowledge till China" is Dhaif thus Hadith that is dhaif can only be used for ownself. (because last time, there is no China).

And also another hadith which is something like, do not fear that ur wealth will decrease for every alms given....something like that...so dont be scared of donating and fear that ur money wil go bye-bye! God will repay generously for ur deeds. Insya-Allah amin.

Next week, is the "outburst" of Juz Amma.(Outburst for me because I need to let it out!!) Need to khatam that juz 30 then take test and then go for surah-surah pilihan: Al-Waqiah, Al-Mulk, Al-insan, As-sajadah and Ar-Rahman then after... Juz 29, 28,27...till 5 juz. EVery juz will be given test. My heart cringes at the thought of test...YIKES!! Scared...

note:
Ustaz ask us to read the transliteration of Surah Waqiah-many interesting facts. He also further commented that there is a milk river and arak (wine) river in Paradise. The milk river is readily drinkable straight from the river. Subhanallah.The wine river is not intoxicating and tasted zilion times better than u can ever imagined! But only in PAradise. Those who drank on EArth will not be given the chance to taste it (...unless perhaps, taubat...)A single drop of alcoholic drink that we drank will cause our amalan not to be accepted by God for 40 days.(but still wajib to solat 5 obligatory prayers) Now, that applies to a drop, how about a can or bottles? AStaghfirullahalazim. Ya Allah jauhikanlah...

Rusty crusty brain...

Wow! today is the D-Day ...the day of Hadith memorisation. Was given 2 simple hadith and I got stuck at the second one. It was perfectly fine when I was "Rehearsing" on my own. But as I face Ustaz, my hands became clammy, the heart beat very fast, I began to panick! ARGH! Suddenly I've forgotten what I'm supposed to recite in front of the teacher! ARGH!!!

Since Im an old bird, I felt that I should be better than others (the beginners) and that I should show good example thus the pressure piled up as I slowly walked to the mosque. But end up, I plonked !

Nevermind that, I have to work harder. I just had to learn to relax...breathe in and out ..perhaps should read lots and lots of supplications...

Oh by the way,
fyi : The Taqwiyatul Hifz solat (on Thursday but its night is called "friday night"), recite: Yasin first rakkaat, then Ad-Dukhan then salam. Third rakaat recite as-sajadah and then al-mulk for the last rakaat.

Yesterday was the first time ever, I tried doing it. It was tough. First time, I had to go thru a long period of standing in prayer. But I felt relieved that I am able to do it . Alhamdulillah. I had doubts as to whether I can withstand the whole solat. But somehow I did it. Alhamdulillah.

I nearly did not because even my wall clock gave up on me. I kept waking up seeing the clock was only 12.45am.(battery died @12.45am) Luckily someone woke me up at 5am. Its tough for a lady to get 3 weeks of taqwiyatul hifz (due to pms) continuously and if I miss even 1 week, there goes my chance!

There is one doa/supplication that our teacher ask us to memorise (Esp. for hifz students). I like it when i read its meaning. Will post it later insya-Allah.

My brains are just spinning the whole 2 days. Ate panadol, sleep well but then the brains are still crammed. Rusty perhaps...or need some sort of engine oil to smoothen the dry joints...hehhe!! Warming up...

The first 2 hadiths....

Just to share what I had to memorize for my first class of Hadith memorization:

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Hifz class 1

Alhamdulillah, I was chosen to partake in the course!

I will take it that this as another valuable invitation (from God) that I should not let go and take lightly. I better make best use of it!Insya-Allah, I want to be the best hifz student dunia akhirat and hope that one day, I can be the best hifz teacher dunia and akhirat!amin.

Today went to class, let me just blurt out all these info before I forget them...

Ustaz mentioned that anyone any age ,anybody can memorize. Need to believe in it that he/she can make it.

Also benefits of HIFZ are:
-parents of those who memorised the Holy Quran will be crowned in the Hereafter.
-the hafiz/hafizah can enter Hell to look at the punishments and the victims and can bring out 6-7 people out of hell into Paradise. Even those mati syahid cannot do that. The privileges. Subhanallah.

Words of wisdom/advices:
-Check ur niat. Ensure it is for Allah s.w.t sincerely from the heart, ikhlas.
-Those not fluent in Al-Quran , need to spend more time with Al-Quran. Recite more and gain more confidence.
-Dont read Al-Quran in ur shorts, must read with adab (with proper aurat)
-It's best to recite the Holy Quran in tartil (not too fast) but for those learning hifz, it is allowed to recite in faster pace (only those who learn hifz has the privilege). But ensure,though it is fast speed, ensure that the mahkhraj and tajwid is maintained along the way.

-Dont forget theAl-Quran ever, because its like a camel being left unattended, it will run away from u and disappear. If u forget Al-Quran, Al-Quran will forget u.
-Spend 30mins after solah to recite Al-Quran everyday/ memorise 3 pages-1 juz per day.

-Try to khatam at least once a year, once a month or once per week. Not once in ur lifetime.
-To memorise at least read the sentence minimum 20 times. I've heard also other Ustaz says 40X , some even says 60 times. From my personal experience, beginners will take a long time, perhaps 40-60times to memorise than as they move upwards and become regulars at memorising, then the repetition become shorter. There was a time in my teens, I read one time, and it straight away enter my brains. But those were the days, I was so enthusiastic and very motivated thus the work of memorization is easier.

-Recite Al-Waqiah in the morning -Rezki (could be in monetary form, assets or food or anything)will come without u anticipating it or if too long then dzikir "Ar-RAzak" often.

-Ask ur mother to doa for u if u have difficulty in memorizing (Mother's supplications are express but these mothers are the taqwa ones. If those who did not pray, that is difficult)

I remembered another Ustaz said that "forgetful is a test for all of us because that will help remove takabur (prevent us from being arrogant) thus whenever I forget, I embrace it and think positively that GOd is testing me and that He wants us to be good and must work harder.

And never think that our success is our own from our own hard work,..its due to God helping us. cos without HIS help, nothing can happen...

So if u have difficulty, ask God for help..insya-Allah....and dont forget the taqwiyatul Hifz, the 4 rakaat (2 salam) solat sunnat whereby it can be done only on friday night. But the surahs needed to recite in the solats are quite long (Alhamdulillah, u can hold up the Quran in ur solat) . But the benefits are HUGE! It is said that u need at least minimum 3X of fridays and the max is 7X continuously insya-Allah, u will have no problem memorizing anything...subhanallah.

Well, that's it for now...

I do have another notes that I wrote down during the orientation of the class from another Ustaz. Well, that is another story insya-Allah...

Someone has posted some notes from Tahfiz centre @ Kg Siglap mosque :
http://www.scribd.com/doc/2438230/Kaedah-Menghafal-AlQuran (in malay)

Bought these 2 books recently...

Recently, I read in the newspaper that the course Sijil Tahfiz wa sunnah (Memorization of Al-Quran and Hadith) is open to public. Alhamdulillah. Thinking of trying out. There is a test to go thru. Maybe I will go. I just berserah ..leave it in God's hands. If I succeed, that means its an invitation , if not, that means I must try harder and work harder....


The course days are every wednesday and friday. Hmm, I got my intensive beginner Arabic course which I just started. Luckily, it is an online interactive course. But then again...I might need to forgo my wednesday class, how? I asked them if it is possible to come only on friday for the new Hifz course but they replied that best to attend both classes since this course involved Hadith.


So again I berserah....We'll see how it goes. I just doa that if it is good for me, then let everything flow smoothly and may I excel in both studies. If not, then there must be another way for me or maybe I'm not good enough, then I just concentrate more on my Arabic course and my hifz of the Holy Quran (own time own target). But I wont give up, insya-Allah one day, I will still pursue this course.


I think I need to re-enter this class badly. Because I need some motivation and need to instill some competitiveness within myself...hmm..


Anyway, amidst this great decision making I wander around Joo Chiat Complex level 2 bookshop (the biggest one which sells books, scarves, jamu....) . I browse thru the books and ended in the back of the bookstore. I found these 2 interesting books. The kiddie book cost only $13 and the hifz book is about $5.

The Juz Amma for kids is quite interesting because they are colourful and has 2 languages for its translation. One is Indonesian Malay and the other is English. They also included basic solat, wudhu and some daily doas for the kids.


The best thing is that they have little cartoon images of transports (good for little boys!) as symbols for basic tajwid. Subhanallah. My son was addicted to it. Cannot wait to read it. Often bring it here and there wherever and whenever. Wanting to know in depth about each surah. And this book covers the whole juz 30 only. Just nice for budding hifz kids, dont u think?

As for the other book, its for me...just started reading it...interesting.


p.s: I just started training my little boy (4yrs old) memorizing al-Fateha, An-Nas,Al-Lahab). He has so many questions wanting me to explain what he is reading and so I need to do some research and equip myself with some answers before I can face him.

Learning Arabic?

A good detailed in pdf file of online learning :
http://www.sacredlearning.org/classrooms/arabic/


Recently enrol myself in an arabic course . I am truly a newbie dummie of arabic language....zero knowledge. I was procrasinating on mandarin or arabic course. The fact that I can undersand mandarin well but not able to write, read or speak (can say some owrds but shy cos scared people will laugh at my pronunciation).Most arabic course taught us to speak arabic but this course is intense, it taught read,write ,grammar and composition. How cool is that?

I think arabic is important to undertand the Holy Quran so that can "menghayati dengan lebih mendalam " (appreciate) the true meaning of Al-Quran although its just basics. Furthermore sometimes, we need to wakaf that certain ayat and might wakaf wrongly unless we have a good grasp of Arabic knowledge..and of course going to Mecca, Medina will be a breeze if u know their language.

This is a one year interactive course (includes chat,interactivev program and online learnig) where I will learn Arabic read, write, grammar and composition from Jamiyah with the Al-Madinah University international (combined). So insya-Allah, by the end of the year, I should know some basics ,I hope...

What I love is the vast library books online that is provided by www.mediu.edu.my and I cannot wait to get my login and password. YIPEE!!

And I hope at the end of the course, all of us can go some place where the Arabic language learnt can be applied on.Since the first teacher is Morrocan so how about Morroco? hehe!

Anyway our first lesson with this Morrocan teacher is quite interesting. Its actually practising our makhrajul huruf (alphabets of the holy Quran)and like reading from IQRA bk 1, heheh! Felt like a kid all over again!

But I realised the way our teacher pronounced it is different from the ones we practise from reciting the Al-Quran and its tajwid. Probably could be its dialect and accent. Anyway, I just doa that I can be exceptionally good..in Arabic...I hope, I prayed..insya-Allah.

fyi-total cost is about $1200 and u can pay within $300 X 4months. Alhamdulillah.

Our Prophet pbuh

Beautiful song by Hijjaz

Rasulullah dalam mengenangmu
Kami susuli lembaran sirahmu
Pahit getir pengorbananmu
Membawa cahaya kebenaran

Engkau taburkan pengorbananmu
Untuk umatmu yang tercinta
Biar terpaksa tempuh derita
Cekalnya hatimu menempuh ranjaunya

Tak terjangkau tinggi pekertimu
Tidak tergambar indahnya akhlakmu
Tidak terbalas segala jasamu
Sesungguhnya engkau rasul mulia
Tabahnya hatimu menempuh dugaan
Mengajar erti kesabaran
Menjulang panji kemenangan
Terukir namamu di dalam Al-Quran

Rasulullah kami umatmu
Walau tak pernah melihat wajahmu
Kami cuba mengingatimu
Dan kami cuba mengamal sunnahmu

Kami sambung perjuanganmu
Walau kita tak pernah bersua
Tapi kami tak pernah kecewa
Allah dan rasul sebagai pembela

Nasheed videos

To motivate oneself in hifz...(sorry songs are in malay)

Tahifz + Sunnah =new program of HIFZ

Recently read in the news that they might create a program whereby students memorize the Holy Quran and the hadis together. They will do a trial run this july and 30 students will be chosen. This programme is the collaboration of Kampung Siglap (Marine Parade) mosque and As-Syafaah Mosque(sembawang)

Alhamdulillah, its a dream come true...

I hope one day, I could join that program too! I've always wanted to find HIFZ of Al-Quran and Hadis-2 programs into 1. Always, and somehow my prayer is answered.Alhamdulillah.

Fact or fiction?
Someone told me that those who memorize Al-Quran only, is different than those who memorized Al-Quran and Hadith. This can be seen in the character of that individualistic. Hmm...fascinating...

Whatever it is, if one can memorize anything from AL-Quran of Hadith, to me, is a champion!

wallahu alam.

I will doa many times so that I can train my kids (or myself) to memorize both Al-Quran and the Hadis.I wish to start a new generation in my family line. A generation of huffaz. I think that would be perfect, insya-Allah. Amin.

I fall out with many good people...

I have been keeping mum for the past decades and suddenly as I aged, my patience are running short and my temper grew. Still I bite my lips and suffer in silence. Oh, the agony of not able to retaliate back or just do something or burst out...

Then one day, I realise I cannot take it any longer!!! I just EXPLODE...and I really mean EXPLODE!! I let out streams of hot tears and knife-like words to anyone who has cause grievance and danger to me.

Cannot do it anymore....

I really cannot tolerate anymore nonsense...

But as I let out, I felt better. Of course the truth hurts but somehow, they can improve and changed for the better. I should have done this earlier, should not have waited so long . I should have told them on the spot when that happens, no need to build or accumulate over the years.

Of course some retaliate with dagger -like words, worse than mine but at least all of us say our piece..and life goes on with less burden in the heart.

Some relationship grew better but somehow just burst like soap bubble and nowhere to be found..

Maybe this is one way, I can cleanse my heart so that I wont be so preoccupied with the worldly affairs as I indulge in Hifz...perhaps..wallahu alam.

Food to help ur memorization...

Okay, today I heard in IKIM fm Malaysia Islamic radio channel abut having good memory especially in order to be a huffaz:

There are many facts but most are common ones such as raisins eat 21 pieces everyday, daun ketumbar (coriander leaves) and green apple -its no good to eat them, make u forgetful and sourish items can cause more phlegm/lendih..honey is good...

other than common food listed above...these are some tips:
1.milk is good
2.eggs are good too, they are complete food for brains
3.kundur fruit aka winter melon fruit are good..if I'm not wrong Nabi s.a.w asked us to soak the fruit overnight in water and then drink it or eat it in the early morning before any breakfast
4.this is very interesting: if u eat a pomegranate fruit aka buah delima , ur heart will be bersih/sinar/cahaya (clean/cleansed/enlightened?)for 40 days (subhanallah) .Something like that...I think, one fruit cost about $5...though expensive , look at the benefits, masya-Allah. Mustafa centre always have.

Almonds/walnuts..are good

Also always have wudhu 24X7, thaT ALSO HELPS...

Sins...will make u forget ful too..even minor ones...like visual ones u watch on tv every day...

Allahu alam..that is all i can remember...if any error, please forgive.. that is my weakness...

p.s: Oh by the way, I bought FAQEH recently a compilation of goats milk,habatus sauda, raisins and others , I think about 14 items that are essential and are often used in the olden days...in Arab. My sons love it! Will check the ingredients and post the pic insya-Allah. Any one can eat them , any age...

Other hifz students/huffaz experience..

http://www.shukur.org/v4/component/option,com_smf/Itemid,105/topic,17728.0/

Anyone has similar stories, do give me the link....

OCBC islamic banking

These islamic banking has automatic zakat payments...GOOD!

and if u want to save to Hajj or anything else, there is a fixed savings plan for 2 years whereby there isnt any interest earned...HALAL. Read more below...

http://www.ocbc.com.sg/personal-banking/banking/Bnk_Dep_Inf_Listing.shtm

So when are u saving $$$ thru Islamic banking way?

FAQ on savings account:
http://www.ocbc.com.sg/personal-banking/downloads/banking/Al-Wadiah_faqs_english.pdf

Talking about my lowest point...

Recently there was a time that i got so low that I have no desire to live. I have nothing to look forward to. Everything looked so bleak, so dark, no ray of hope. I felt that I'm slowly drowning and no one can hear my cries. Silently, Im slipping away into the darkness.

It could be a personal experience of family "hiccups" or family "war" or recent demise of loved ones ...many recurring fitnahs tossed on me ..Everything in one. And I dont like to confide in others. I just let it rot within myself.

I used to confide in God but as my confidence slipped away and I felt that I am not a good muslim, not a good mother, not a good daughter or whatever... I tend to shun away from God too (my mistake)

And writing this blog, I felt that I need to be rigid and not open with my thoughts but I think again..Blog is like a diary of thoughts. If I cannot share my feelings and experience then what other channels can I go to, rite?

And s o I dont care what others think, I know my own niat...so here I am, opening up a little...

Anyway, I felt so low that I dont deserve to live...i know those are crappy thoughts and that syaithan are just happy I have those thoughts probably they add more fuel to my fire and thus the negative thoughts grew.

i cam to a point that I dont care about anything even my kids and then I think, I must do something. I began to watched movies that can bring tears to my face like "The Message" or nasheed with death as a message...

It worked a bit then I started to think that I must do something..I cannot continue doing this...

and I have left my best friend behind..the Holy Quran...

then, I decided to slowly....gain that confidence my slowly refreshing my old surahs...slowly and no pressure...for fear that my heart refuse and just turn away again...

Sometimes, we got to pujuk the heart/console it, say nice things...kata2 manis....

to be continued...

Motivational tools

I often heard that Human beings only use 1% of their brains... (What happens to the rest?!!!)

SO lack of motivation since I'm on a lone mission (in my household that is), I started to read many types of motivational books. I borrowed from libraries and also bought a few such as Lahirnya seorang jutawan, the birth of a millionaire by Azizi Ali.

U must be wondering why has millionaire and hifz got in common. Actually this book builds up my goals as I goes by. Because it illustrates that anyone can be Millionaires if u want to. And there was a time where I said and listen a nearby mosque Azan and somehow the particular sentences "Haiya Alas Solah, Haiya Alal falah...Let us pray and let us go towards excellence.

Somehow deep down some thing clicked. We were asked to achieve excellence in everything and that includes work. And I believed that Huffaz are the ones that are Millionaires. Because they memorized a book that contains so much information of anything and everything that cannot be found even in encyclopedia.

Thus I believed that they have inside info to be millionaires. But once the memorized the Holy Quran, I believed they are "Millionaires of info" not money but information...wide vast of information that are useful.

Anyway, I read this book to build up the confidence , the motivations and goals that are slowly slipping away since I embark in homemaker. I used to be a dynamic work person often multitasking and able to work well under pressure and active thus when I chose to nurse and take care of my kids full-time, part of me is gone. That career-mindedness is gone. MY future looked bleak. I was only motivated to mould my kids to be a success, future hufffaz and others but none for myself. I began to feel inferior and often, turn down my working friends invitation to meet-up for fear that I felt so lowly and thus no similar interest or whatsoever.

After reading a few books such as DARE, fight your fear ...I began to feel that there is a fire inside me , growing , motivating me to memorize again...start from scratch (Actually I stop for awhile because I felt that I'm not good enough, because I felt that I don't deserve to memorize the Holy Quran but then...not many will be "INVITED" to memorize the Holy Quran.So I should be thankful.Alhamdulillah.) I've tried convincing a fair deal of people to memorize the Holy Quran be it the beginners or those who are good in reciting. But not a single one willing to carry that responsibility (my circle only). I've told them that anyone (even though u are not good Al-Quran reciters)can be Huffaz. Just need a great determination and good niat. The rest will be open to you slowly.

Once u take the plunge , the doors will open wide for u.

SO get a huffaz to teach you and get ijazah till khatam Al-Quran.I believe any Muslim can do it irregardless of age. (What I wrote is to motivate myself too). Its never too late...seriously, trust me. I am doing it...so why can't u.

I have my ups and downs but I wont GIVE up, insya-Allah, I doa...

Places to pray in Singapore (Musolla)

Have u like in the middle of shopping or working or eating, u need to find a place to solat in a hurry? Or places that u are not familiar with? WEll, look no further, someone has compiled a "makeshift" musolla... (mashaAllah, May God bless that person)

http://web.singnet.com.sg/~mansal/musolla.htm

Documentary videos on our Prophet s.a.w

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If cannot view, go straight to this:
http://www.youtube.com/user/jarhood

Free Quranic software online!

this is very good for memorising The Holy Quran....
http://www.imaanstar.com/juz30.php

Hope it helps those future HUFFAz out there!

Found some great links...

A collection of free online islamic books and others - http://kalamullah.com/hearts.html
Also have lectures - http://kalamullah.com/lectures.html

Dont delay your repentance! (a powerful lecture)


Beautiful recitation of Yasin part 1 (with english translations)


Beautiful recitation of Yasin part 2


I never knew this reciter but was a fan immediately after hearing him..
Fahd Al-Kanderi


Top ten Reciters (This is good for hifz, u can choose which reciter u feel comfortable with or like and then can revise using his recitation or even let it be a motivation goal for urself)


top 5 Qari

pick up my strength again..

Change my method again...

I tried memorizing 5-15 juzuk then insya-Allah will enrol in my ex-school again (though 90% of them are kids and teens, few -56 yr old man, 60 yr old granny and young adults..)Sometimes u need to be in a group of hifz students to feel the drive and motivation to "beat one another" positively.

Its not easy but got to PUSH oneself. After reading about the 82 yr old granma, I felt rejuvenated and more positive in me finishing my hifz. Insya-Allah will try my best!

And the funny thing is that when I try to memorize , suddenly there came lots of problems that crammed up in my tiny brain. This somehow make my mind sway away from memorizing the Holy Quran. But after a while, I just redha and leave everything to Allah s.w.t and I felt peaceful. Alhamdulillah.

Hifz @ 82, NOT IMPOSSIBLE!

Whole Quran memorised at the age of 82
An Interview with Umm Saalih,A Grandmother Who Completed Memorizing the Qur'aan at Eighty-Two Years Old

Al-Hamdulillaah (All-Praise is due to Allah), the One Who said (what means): "And in truth We have made the Qur'aan easy to remember; but is there any that remembers?" Surah 54: 32

Many all over the world memorize the Qur'aan, and it is not strange to see the youth memorizing the Noble Qur'aan and an early age. Al-Hamdulillaah, the One who made the Qur'aan easy for remembrance, had made it easy for Umm Saalih age 82. In an interview with Umm Saalih,she was asked the following questions:

Q1: "What was the reason that drove you to memorize the Qur'aan after so many years?"

She said, "I always hoped to memorize the Qur'aan from the time I was young. My father always used to invoke Allaah for me to become one of the memorizers of the Qur'aan, like himself and like the elder brothers of my family who memorized it. So I memorized in the beginning about three parts and then after I completed the age of thirteen, I got married and became busy with the household and the children. After I had seven children, my husband died. They (the children) were all young so I took the time to raise them and educate them, and then after they grew up and got married, I had more time for myself. Therefore, the first thing I directed myself to focus upon was the Qur'aan.

Q2: "Tell us about your journey with the Noble Qur'aan."

She said, "My younger daughter was going to high school and she was the closest of my children to me and the most beloved, because she stayed with me after her older sisters got married and got busy with their lives, and because she was a quiet girl,upright, loving, and good. In addition, she was interested in learning the Noble Qur'aan, and her teachers encouraged her.

Furthermore, she was very enthusiastic and always told me of many women who were driven by this great motivation to memorize the Qur'aan, and this is where I started."

Q3: "Tell me about your way of memorization."

She said, "We assigned ten verses (meaning her and her daughter who was going to high school). So each day after Asr, we used to sit together. She reads and I repeat after her three times. Then she explains the meaning to me, and after a while, she repeats that three times. On the next morning, she repeats them to me before she goes to school.

She recorded also the recitations of Ash Shaykh al Husary, Rahimuhullaah, repeating each verse three times and thus I continued to listen most of the time. Therefore, the next day we would go to the next ten verses if my memorization was good.Otherwise, we would postpone taking additional verses until the day after. Moreover, we assigned the day of Friday to review the memorizations of the entire week. And this was the journey from the beginning."

Then she said, "Over four years and a half, I memorized twelve juz" according to the way I described to you. Then this young daughter got married. When her husband knew of our task concerning the memorization, he rented a house close to me, close to my house, so that he could allow the continuation of the memorization. In addition, he, May Allah reward him used to encourage us and sometimes sit with us listening, explaining and teaching.

Then after three years of her marriage, my daughter got busy with the children and the household and our schedule was interrupted, but that did not make her give up. To the contrary, she sensed that my eagerness for the memorization was still established so she looked for a special good teacher to continue the journey under her supervision. So, I completed the memorization by the success of Allaah and my daughter is still working to finish the memorization of the Glorious Qur'aan. She has a little left, In Shaa Allaah Ta'aala.

Q4: "This motivation of yours, did it have an effect on other women around you?"

She said, "It really had a good strong effect. My daughters and stepdaughters were all encouraged and worked on learning and teaching the Qur'aan to their children and learning it themselves.

Q5: "After finishing the Noble Qur'aan, don't you think about working on memorizing hadith?"

She said, "Now I have memorized ninety hadith and In Shaa Allaah I will continue the journey. I depend,in my memorization, upon the tapes and upon the Qur'aan radio station. At the end of each week, my daughter comes and checks for me the memorization of three hadith, and I am trying now to memorize more.

Q6: "Over this period of memorization of the Qur'aan, did your life change? Was it affected in one way or another?"

She said, "Yes, I went through a major change and I tried always, all praise is due to Allaah, to obey Allaah before I started the memorization. However, after I started the task of memorization, I began to feel a self-comfort, a great self-comfort and all worries began to move away from me. I even reached the stage of freeing myself from all these excessive worries concerning fearing for the children and their affairs, and my morale was boosted.

I had a noble objective to work for and this is a great Ni'mah (Favor) from Allaah . upon me, since we know that some women, when they get old and they do not have a husband, and their children got married, may be destroyed by the empty time, thoughts, worries, and so forth. But, AlHamdulillaah, I didn't go through this and I made myself busy with a great task and a great objective.

Q7: "Didn't you think at one point, to join one of the circles focusing on teaching the Noble Qur'aan?"

The answer was, "Yes, some of the women suggested this to me, but I am a woman who got used to staying at home, and I don't like to go out everyday, and Al Hamdulillaah, my daughter sufficed me from all difficulty and I was so happy while I was learning from her. My daughter had set an example in goodness and righteousness which we rarely find in our days.

She started this task and journey with me while she was an adolescent and this is a critical age many people complain of. She used to pressure herself so that she could have spare time to teach me, and she used to teach me with kindness and wisdom. Her husband was a good help to her and he exerted a lot of effort. I ask Allaah . to give them success and to bring their children up on uprightness."

Q8: "What do you say to a woman of your age who wishes to learn and memorize the Qur'aan yet she is worried about it and feeling unable to?"

She said, "I say to her there their shall be no despair with the firm, sincere and truthful determination. Begin with sincerity, firm determination and dependence on Allaah at each time. And remember that at this age you should have the time for yourself. However, do not use your time to only go out or to sleep and so forth. Rather, busy yourself with righteous work.

Q9: "Now what would you say to a woman who is still young? What would you advise her?"

She, may Allaah preserve her, said: "Preserve Allaah and He will preserve you. Make use of the favor of Allaah bestowed upon you from health and ways and means of comfort. Use that to memorize the Book of Allaah. This is the light which enlivens your heart, your life and your grave after you die.

And if you have a mother then exert the effort to teach her, and there is no better favor upon a mother than one of her righteous children aiding her to be close to Allaah."

Source: Ad-Da'wah Magazine, no.1552, 1st August1996